Shut coaching institutes. They suck

​Kota: Coaching institutes should be shut down by the government, wrote a 17-year-old student before jumping to her death from the fifth floor of her residence here recently, despite having cracked the IIT-JEE mains.

In her four-page long suicide note, the contents of which have been released by the police on Tuesday, the girl expressed her desire to join NASA as a scientist and her lack of interest in engineering.

A Ghaziabad resident, Kirti had been staying with her parents for over two years in Kota and taking coaching for IIT-JEE at an institute in the city.

The suicide note says she was not able to put up with the depression and stress that she had been experiencing while taking coaching, according to Harish Bharti, SHO, Jawharnagar police station.

In a line from her note, Kirti said the Human Resource Development (HRD) Ministry should shut down the coaching institutes, complaining that studies in these centres subjected the students to unbearable stress and depression. “They suck,” she said in the suicide note.

Though she cracked the ITT-JEE mains by scoring 144 marks, engineering was a field in which she had no interest, the SHO said, referring to her letter. He said Kirti had received an award from NASA and wanted to join the space agency as a scientist.

In her letter, she addressed family members, including her grandparents, parents and sister, and expressed deep love and attachment for each of them, the SHO said.

“It’s not because of bad scores in JEE Mains. I was expecting worse. It’s because I’ve started hating myself to the extent that I want to kill myself. Most people around me will say that I would never kill myself and that I had no reason.

They don’t know what’s going on inside me,” says the suicide note. The letter reveals that she planned to commit suicide on April 22 but the friend prevented it.

Kriti was strong and helped others come out of depression when they felt suicidal, the letter indicates. “Some might even say that she was so strong that we would never have imagined that she would do something like this… This is because I helped many come out of their depression and make a comeback.”

Funny, I couldn’t do that to myself,” she wrote. She felt she wasn’t made for science. “You manipulated me as a kid to like science… I took science to make you happy,” she wrote addressing her mother. “I had interest in astrophysics and quantum physics and would have done a BSc… I still love writing, english, history (sic)… and they are capable of exciting me in the darkest times…”

Addressing her father, whom she calls “the best”, Kriti wrote, “All the time spent with you is good memory and your company, cherished… I am sorry to leave you alone.” She cautioned him against taking up alcohol – “I have heard people take to alcohol in grief. I don’t want anyone to do that, especially dad.”